Monday, July 06, 2009
Yea it's been long. Again.
Melbourne. Where do i start.
Well, its been a week here now and still another week more to go. Living in the city is really nice. Its like living in Orchard Road. Plenty of shopping, good food; mostly asian, and good weather. What more can you ask for.
Well for the first few days yea i was happy. New place, new environment. But now, it seems like i've been here forever and it makes me kinda miss home, but at the same time also makes me wana get away from it all and start afresh.
Had a really good and long catch up with my sisters the other night; in the toilet- on the topic of boyfriends, future studies, my future and Christianity. We talked for hours taking turns to sit on the toilet bowl and for a moment, i felt as if my life seemed so full of opportunities and open possibilities. There's so much i wana do, wana explore, but yet at the same time there are also many things i dont wana let go.
What do i really want?
I dont know really. Maybe its more of "What is best for me" or " Which is more worth it" perhaps? This may be the toughest crossroads i've ever gona encounter and i dont know what to do and who to go to. How can anybody understand. Its more than what it seems on the surface and to you guys whom i care about and who cares about me, i dont know how to explain this lost and confused feeling.
These few days, i've been thinking alot about everything, and mostly about how my life here has been so far. Yea its fun, driving out to the suburbs, hanging out with my sisters in the city, trying to absorb every inch of it as much as possible in case i were to ever stay here. But its hard when im in-tune with myself, like right now, and find myself wanting to be on the other side of the globe with someone, but feel like it wont be the same anymore if i were to be here. Cos its happening right now. I dont know, maybe im not matured enough for this kinda long distance stuff. Why am i so insecure? Not that there isnt any trust, there's plenty but ....
.. What's the point right.
Oh well, its 2am here alr. Goodnight all :)
P.S Updated photos of melb on fb! Blogging is so, 2008? Lol.