I miss my clique, i miss doing FYP, i miss school and i miss mugging for exams! :( Feel as if i wasted my 3 years. I didnt accomplish anything! Never worked hard, never properly establish any good social network, never stayed faithful to a CCA, never fully utilise the school facilities, never involved with school realated activities and omg i just realised, I HAVENT BEEN TO EVERY CORNER OF NP! This is so sad..... I feel old.
And I just realised another thing. Right after June 19th (end of attchment thank God.), im out on my ownnnnnnnn. Havent figured out what's the next step of my life is yet. Study/Work OR Work/Study, Here OR There???? So many things to think about and i've delibrately pushed it all to the last minute cos i truely believed in the chinese term"chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi" However, my boat is still seh-ngek! :(
Time flies. I still cant accept the fact that im an adult now. Freaking TWENT-TY this year. I dont wana be stuck doing deskjobs for the rest of my life like what im doing for attachment now. Its horrible! Butt cramps/numbness all the time, squinting in front of the comp screen the whole day. I bet my asticmatism has worsened. I have plans to join my sisters in australia to further my studies cos i know im definietly not gona make it here. But.... I've got so many strings attached here. Depressing, confusing, exasperating. Urrgh :(
Anyways, glimpse of my attachment period. :)
Phots of other outings are in facebook.