Saturday, June 30, 2007
I've almost given up on trying.
Louder i'm crying but the further apart we are.
Why is it so hard to let go of the past and open up to let each other in..
Afraid of getting hurt again is just another excuse.
Arent we both hurting now?
I hate my blog now that is has really drawn a clear line between us.
I have nothing to hide.
Guys just come and go like seasons and i can surely differenciate very well between just friends, fullstop, and someone special.
No one really mattered that much and its the first time i've really cried my eyes sore that it would hurt just wiping the tears away.
I dont know how long i could keep this happy, cheerful facade anymore, trying to keep all these inside afraid of being classified as selfish and selfindulgent again.
Never did i expect myself to be so weak.
What have i become..