Had been going down to school to help out in the FOC recruitment. Cant really remember details that happened. Just vivid images here and there. HAHA.


Ohhhh. Yesterday after helping out at the booth, Caryn, Calvin, Kit, Samuel, Jerry, Justin and I went town to get my stuff and hangout. But Kit had to go once we decided to head for Lido to slack. =((((

We finally found our seat after standing around for quite sometime. LOL. Eh thanks to Caryn and I ok. We were practically giving pitiful faces to a group of ahbengs can. HAH. After we sat down and ate our lunch/dinner, we started playing Truth/Dare. And they made me do 2 jumpingjacks infront of the KFC counter laaaaaa. ON A SATURDAY. LOL. But the rest was too lazy to do dares so we did truths instead. THEY ASKED SO MANY DISGUSTING QUESTIONS LAAA. HAH. But we had bucket loads of laughter. =DDD































DAGO DINNER~ ; FRIDAY





































I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah it sure is hard to do

I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
Climbing up a hill

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really give our love a chance
And I know without a doubt
That we turned it inside out
And if we walked away it would it make more sense
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on this carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere
On a wing and prayer

Are you ever coming back again

Labels: =)

Things are'nt really going very well for me lately. I'm on a verge of a major breakdown. Infact, i've cried several times alone, at the very corner of my room. And this is the time where i need him the most. And when i'm facing my darkest times of my life, he denied me. Hah.

I swore that night to not cry ever again. And that it'll only be happy posts from then on. I guess i no longer know how to be strong. Yeaa i sound like a weak shit. I seriously can't get my fat ass to move on... Everywhere i go, there'll be an essence of him and tons of huge gushes of memories that i can't avoid. At this point i guess friends are'nt of much help. I used to think that with friends around, there's no need of a him. Major mistake. Now i can't make do without him. Hah. Ironic is it, that how i was the one who ended everything in the first place and now crawling on me palms and knees with my heavily bruised ego down at my feet.

He said forever. Exactly how long is forever? A hundred years? A thousand? Or only till the day we both go on our seperate ways. Somehow i don't believe in love anymore. Neither in forever. It's nothing more than a facade. I'm really heavily broken. There's nothing left inside to spare.

Hell yeaa i tried to move on. Fuck and stop asking me to be strong, move along and say that i can get a better guy. I've totally given up in starting it all over again. I've been in one for too long to start over with another. And besides him, i have no freaking interest in other them guys. Weird is'nt it. Hah. Yeaa mock me. I don't really care. I just want my baby back.

And if it happens, i swear it'll be 'till eternity.

Labels: can't take it no more.

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And I’ll just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again, it'll never end
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do

Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again, it doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air (screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can’t you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move (what can I do?)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken

Labels: and i thank you.

Broken
This fragile thing now
And I can't
I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't
I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
(So broken up)
And I give up
(I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one

Made my mistakes
Let you down
And I can't
I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't
I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up
(Breaking up)
I feel like giving up
(Like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only
My only one

Labels: You're my only one. Period.

Labels: =DDD

My dad's crazy. Yeah literally. I think he's showing signs of menopause and he seriously needs some medical attention. Can't freaking stand him anymore. ARRGH. I used to be the only one who sides him and always make an effort to understand his intentions and appreciate his care and concern. But this time he has really crossed my line and challenged my level of tolerance. Maybe he's going through some tough times in his work or something. But as a christian i think its not really wise to thrash it out on his loved ones. This is one of the reasons why i think christians are the largest plastics. I know i can't use my family's situation to judge all christians but don't blame me 'cos they are one of the examples i see almost everyday of my life. Arghh.

Anyways, i did'nt know putting letters into envelopes and sticking addresses on them can be so tirering. Must be the late nights and enthu-ism in coming up with original power cheers and super fierce logo for our group flag. Oh and not to mention, thinking and coming up with a group identity. My group members are'nt freaking contributing and doing anything and so, i have to take charge. Dang.

XIANG LING!! YOU BETTER BE BACK QUICK OR I'LL FLY OVER TO VIETNAM, DRAG YOU BACK BY THE COLLAR AND KILL YOU. RAAHHHH.

OHHH. One more thing. When sorting and packing the letters into the envelopes, WE FOUND THIS!!................














PAUL TWOHILL'S IN FMS. So now we know where he lives. HAH.

Ok and so, after the tormenting sorting of the envelopes, Caryn pulled me to her cousin's church. So here's how she "invited" me.

Caryn: Eh Cheryl, wana go to my cousin's church with me?

Cheryl: Errmmmm...

Caryn: YOU BETTER GO. *slapping my thigh*

Cheryl: Errr. Orrrhhhhhh. K lor...........

Caryn: Yeayy good! *all smiles*

Cheryl: =.=


HAH. Funny right this girl. So happens that her friend was dragged in this way too. LOL. But anyways, the people in that church are really nice and outgoing. So we're thinking of attending service again next Friday if we have the time. And..... we ate supper at Adam's Rd hawker centre. The sambal sting ray DAMN SHIOK. =DDDD Well, i'm sick of eating macs almost everyday so, we can go there and have our meals instead of macs since its so freaking near. Like a few stops away from school only. YEAYY.

Labels: F*ed up dad. SU torture. PAUL TWOHILL FOUND. Caryn. GOOD FOOD.

###### says (10:26 PM):
anyways, wat u wana tell him?

***** says (10:26 PM):
that i think the cheers and things are all plain stupide

###### (10:26 PM):
ohh..

###### (10:27 PM):
its nt their fualt tt they cnt come out with original cheers wat

###### (10:27 PM):
lets b a lil understanding

###### (10:27 PM):
lol

###### (10:27 PM):
during our foc we'll pwn them with our own original cheers n hopefully they'll learn smthn.



RAAHHHH.
No offence but, compred to the others, we really lack standard. Im not taking sides but.. I admit we're a lil pathetic. In a sense that even getting a full attendance is way beyond our capabilities and of 'cos, being so thick skinned. Oh wells. =/

P.S. If you feel offended by this post, well im sorry. Just my personal opinion since some people are open about sensitive topics. Anyways, with caryn, xiangling, denyse, nicole, nessa & yin FOC will still rock. I swear.

Labels: LSCT GLs gaaahhhhhhh.

AHHH FCUK. I FAILED THAT FCUKING OBCCCCC. RAAHHHH.
nicole and caryn passedddddd. THEY PANG SEH ME LAHH!!! argh. nobody failed except me i guess. fcuk la. RAAHHH.


If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stank and treating you this way

Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell all on the floor
It's your fault, you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet (I’ll try to change)
I know I've been a real bad girl (I’ll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
So ever, we can make it better
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

Labels: fcuk obc.

HAH. damn long since i blogged. Well, not that long la. But loadsa stuff happened. Really happy these few days. Though it might be kinda tiring, but at least it helped me scrape through the darkest time of the 17yrs of living 'till date.




















#3] LSCT TRIAL CAMP { 10-11 MAR}
WE MADE IT THROUGH TRIAL CAMP!! =DDD
Though i had to miss a 'lil of the camp, i still had a fill of fun with my BROWNIES!! I seriously had troubles memorising the cheers. HAH. But i really got high surporting my group and doing the cheers.

Basically, everything was great. The food, the games, the cheers, my group members etc etc. Best of all, i had YIN, DENYSE, SERENE and some nice guys in my group. I was like super high, shouting and screaming. HAH.

The games was not bad la. All the dirty muddy games as usual. But our team spirit made the games seem a 'lil more exciting. HAH. Oh, and we had nightwalk. I thought it was gona so scary and all. But.... really disappointing. The only scary part i felt was the part in the lift where i have to take the pitched dark lift all by myself to the 8th floor. =.=

The directions was not clear enough and the sgls and agls who were suppose to scare us along the way was slacking and didnt bother to scare us. Some did but... no effect leh. HAH. It was so freaking long and not scary at all. =/ Worse thing is we had to wait 'bout 4-5 hrs for the rest to finish their walk. =.= We started at bout 11plus and ended at bout freaking 6am in the morning. Our butts were like going through hell la! And we were'nt suppose to lie down on the floor. =.= I swear our butts had a couple of bruises at the end of the day lor. Can't freaking sit properly the next day.

Anyways, lights off were at 'bout 6plus. All of us literally konked of once we lay down on the floor. Woke up 'bout 10. First time i felt as if i just got hit by a truck. Damn tired and shag. Must be the long working hours and late nights. =/

We had like cheers and learning of claps. Damn fun. All of us clapped with bottles and all. Finally we all get to know which comm we're in. Got some trashing at first and a 'lil drama from the sgls and agls. Abit of complaining and stuff and finally.... I GOT INTO WELFARE!! YEAYY. And best of all is, XiangLing is my partner. HAH. =DDD Though i dont really like my other group comm members, i'll try to adapt to them. VELTRO'S SO GONA ROCK THIS FOC!! =DDD


#4] I'M IN STUDENT UNION NOWWWW =DDD
Had a morning call from Caryn and she shouted through the phone and asked me if i wana join SU. I was like. "Err, Uh-mm, What're you saying again?? Uh-mm. OHHH. HELL YEAHH!!!" HAHA. I was suppose to catch a movie with Nic. But had to tell him to cancel. HAH. SORRY NIC SWEETIE!!! hahah. SO HAPPY. =DDD Best of all is the people are really nice. Though a 'lil awkward that i sudd join their group like that but we really broke the ice real fast. Caryn's happy, everybody's happy and I'm happy =DDD DAGONET'S SO GONA ROCK THIS FOC I SWEAR. HAH. LOVE YOU CARYN HONEY!! ^^

#5] SHIT FUCK. RESULTS OUT TOMORROW
I'm so gona fail OBC i swear. But i'll look on the bright side; i'm gona get a better GPA if i retook this fucking module. GAAHHH. =/

Labels: job done = $$, LSCT Trial Camp, new job = $$, Student Union. fuck results out tmr =(

It's been a long, long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind, now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again

There's not a minute that goes by, every hour of every day
You're such a part of me but I just pulled away
Well I'm not the same girl you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed

I know you had to go away
I died just a little
And I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me
Here with me

You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part
Of something strong and true but I was scared and left it all behind

I know you had to go away
I died just a little
And I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me
Here with me

And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me please
I never will forget the look upon your face
How you turned away and left without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do
And I thank you
(thank you, thank you)

I know you had to go away
I died just a little
And I feel that now you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me

Here with me
Here with me

Labels: song dedication.

01.NOV.89
NGEE ANN POLY
M.BIO
saintz_2003@hotmail.com


mr. cw yeo
you-tube
period dramas,
good songs,
happy food,
movie soundtracks,
snacks,
Quaker chocolate chunks,
POST Cranberry Almond Crunch!!
BENTO SQUID SEAFOOD SNACKS
etc...




If you guys are wondering what to get for my bday, here's a list to get you on the right track. :D

*apple iPOD TOUCH 8gb
*Havaianas
*BIRKENSTOCK
*CAMERA
*POLAROID CAMERA
*mp3 Player
*LG PRADA
*Wii+guitar hero+Wii Fit
*DOLLA DOLLA BILL YO~




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* ABELINA
* ALVIN CHOY
* BOYFRIEND;DARLING;BABY;HONEY<3
* CAT
* CARYN
* CHINKOON
* CHRISPIN
* DALIA
* DENYSE
* EUNICE-dagofreshie
* GRACE
* IMPIAN-TCC
* JEAN
* JEREMY-dagofreshie
* KAREN
* LINETTE
* Maryam-dagofreshie
* MEIZHEN
* MELLISA GOH
* NESSA
* NICOLE
* NP STARTBURST
* PEITING
* SAMUEL
* SHANNON
* SHERYLHO
* SHUHUI
* SIJIE
* SWEEYIN
* TEAM DAGONET
* WEE CHONG

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