Wednesday, February 21, 2007
I'm super exhausted. just came back from visiting at jere, caryn and davin's hs. which means..MORE ANG BAO! hehehehe. no i'm not materialistic. i'm just.. realistic. haha. i actually do believe money makes the world go round. im not saying money can solve all our problems, but at least with money i can shop. shopping means i have less time to think bout the unhappy stuff, missing someone and many other stuffs. which means i'll be a happy girl. erm. well, at least for a moment. Hah.
Ok.. so back to why i was so tired.. yeah. for the last few days i've been sleeping reeeaallly waaayyyy past my bedtime. haha. my biological clock is all screwed up. anyways, had a looonngggg chat with a very very good friend. he's soooo sweet la. we chat the whooole night bout my stuff and all and he didnt even complain. he has to meet his gf early in the morning sommore. i guess he's more than suitable to talk to bout my situation bahh. i guess cos he's kinda in the same plight as me. just that much more luckier and happier. and no im not flirting or anything. just having a heart to heart talk with a brother which i dont think a girl-friend can. my friends are great. esp caryn, nessa, yin, nicole, denyse.. just that, i think guys are better listeners bah.
I know he has made his stand. just that, if only he could give me a chance. just like i did before. arrgh. nvm... i tried. i really tried my best to move on, stay happy, find a better guy blah blah. hah. yeah. desperate, i'm crawling. at this point, i wish a was a fish. the first 3 seconds, still remembering the "i love you darling" whispers and all the other sweet nothings in my ears, and the next 3 seconds onwards remembering nothing at all like he never once stepped into my life and got me begging and crawling on my knees with all cuts and bruises. it was till now that i finally figure out myself the meaning of having a taste of your own medicine. hah. how shall i congratulate myself.