Wednesday, May 19, 2010
i wana go home :(
I figured why i stopped blogging.
I HATE WRITTINGGGGGGG!!!
Uni is sooooo much tougher than poly. I miss NP, i miss my Repeatoirs, i miss SIM food (Tom yum 汤，不要湎，加多多菜!)
Sunday, November 29, 2009
I have no jist to blog anymore mannnnn.
Okok so right after attachment @ Lonza comes FULL-TIME at The Salvation Army. Pay sucks, but im doing what i love so i guess its worth it. Passion and money just dont go together most of the time. The coming 5 months that i've spent being involved with kids and the "working" environment has made me open my eyes to a few things.
1) I really do have passion for kids. I love interacting with them, i love spending time with them and im willing to do ANYTHING
means bathing them, feeding them, changing diapers, cleaning their shit filled asses, clearing their vomit and picking up their shit.
3) Not to judge anyone by first impressions.
4) Not to trust anyone who appears to be kind to you before you actually know the person.
5) Reality bursted my "nobody is THAT
6) Yup, Passion doesnt equal to Money. And because of that, reality and life sucks.
Ok, so that sums up everything regarding my working experience.
On a heavier note, i just got accepted to the University of Queensland. Commencing in mid Feb but flying over for orientation on the 16th. What an awesome timing. But fortunately, im probably
only gona be there for 18 months so its still ok i guess. Cnt say that im looking forward to it, but there's still a tinge of excitement. That small spark mainly because i finally see a tinge of brightness in my future. I was so lost before, uncertain about my ability to grow up and the ability to forge a good future for myself and on my own. Now everything is in my hands now and i hope im wiser this time.
I'll miss him definitely. But this is not the time to be childish. In order for us to grow individually and also as a couple, such seperation is worth it i guess. Anyway it'll only be for awhile. Obviously im psychoing myself. Maybe the true force of reality hasnt hit me yet, but im calm now cos i know we're more than that. :)
Alrightttttttttttttttt....................... Next up, planning for Xmas Party!! Yeay so excited. Girls, stay tuned and keep yourselves free on the 19th of Dec!!
(Ok, i guess Cat you're the only one who'd be reading this so pls take note and inform the rest ya. Lol. Oh and you know who to call right.... *Ahem*)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
I am jobless, hungry, and SUPERcalifragilisticexpialidocious-ly bored...
Urgh i hate this. H-A-T-E this.
I'd give ANYTHING to go back to school again. (Except..)
Oh wait, that's what's happening right now is'nt it.
Monday, July 06, 2009
Yea it's been long. Again.
Melbourne. Where do i start.
Well, its been a week here now and still another week more to go. Living in the city is really nice. Its like living in Orchard Road. Plenty of shopping, good food; mostly asian, and good weather. What more can you ask for.
Well for the first few days yea i was happy. New place, new environment. But now, it seems like i've been here forever and it makes me kinda miss home, but at the same time also makes me wana get away from it all and start afresh.
Had a really good and long catch up with my sisters the other night; in the toilet- on the topic of boyfriends, future studies, my future and Christianity. We talked for hours taking turns to sit on the toilet bowl and for a moment, i felt as if my life seemed so full of opportunities and open possibilities. There's so much i wana do, wana explore, but yet at the same time there are also many things i dont wana let go.
What do i really want?
I dont know really. Maybe its more of "What is best for me" or " Which is more worth it" perhaps? This may be the toughest crossroads i've ever gona encounter and i dont know what to do and who to go to. How can anybody understand. Its more than what it seems on the surface and to you guys whom i care about and who cares about me, i dont know how to explain this lost and confused feeling.
These few days, i've been thinking alot about everything, and mostly about how my life here has been so far. Yea its fun, driving out to the suburbs, hanging out with my sisters in the city, trying to absorb every inch of it as much as possible in case i were to ever stay here. But its hard when im in-tune with myself, like right now, and find myself wanting to be on the other side of the globe with someone, but feel like it wont be the same anymore if i were to be here. Cos its happening right now. I dont know, maybe im not matured enough for this kinda long distance stuff. Why am i so insecure? Not that there isnt any trust, there's plenty but ....
.. What's the point right.
Oh well, its 2am here alr. Goodnight all :)
P.S Updated photos of melb on fb! Blogging is so, 2008? Lol.
Friday, May 29, 2009
A boy and a girl were playing together. The boy had a collection of marbles. The girl had some sweets with her.
The boy told the girl that he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets. The girl agreed. The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all her sweets as she had promised.
That night, the girl slept peacefully. But the boy couldn’t sleep as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him the way he had hidden his best marble.
Moral of the story:
If you don’t give your hundred percent in a relationship, you’ll always keep doubting if the other person has given his / her hundred percent.
THIS IS SO TRUE! =/
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
FINALLY AN UPDATE!
Lol my last post was on Feb 26th? That long?
Actualy nothing much has changed besides the fact that im currently halfway through my attachment, getting older and growing fatter. Love the people there, o-k with the job, but hate the 8 o'clock mayhem where i always kena stuck in the morning jam cos couldnt wake up at 6. Cant wait to be free again.
I miss my clique, i miss doing FYP, i miss school and i miss mugging for exams! :( Feel as if i wasted my 3 years. I didnt accomplish anything! Never worked hard, never properly establish any good social network, never stayed faithful to a CCA, never fully utilise the school facilities, never involved with school realated activities and omg i just realised, I HAVENT BEEN TO EVERY CORNER OF NP! This is so sad..... I feel old.
And I just realised another thing. Right after June 19th (end of attchment thank God.), im out on my ownnnnnnnn. Havent figured out what's the next step of my life is yet. Study/Work OR Work/Study, Here OR There???? So many things to think about and i've delibrately pushed it all to the last minute cos i truely believed in the chinese term"chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi" However, my boat is still seh-ngek! :(
Time flies. I still cant accept the fact that im an adult now. Freaking TWENT-TY this year. I dont wana be stuck doing deskjobs for the rest of my life like what im doing for attachment now. Its horrible! Butt cramps/numbness all the time, squinting in front of the comp screen the whole day. I bet my asticmatism has worsened. I have plans to join my sisters in australia to further my studies cos i know im definietly not gona make it here. But.... I've got so many strings attached here. Depressing, confusing, exasperating. Urrgh :(
Anyways, glimpse of my attachment period. :)
Phots of other outings are in facebook.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I dont know what to do, or what to feel anymore..
And ya im always the one at fault.
The black sheep; whatever.
Anyway, this is so much like us lol. Right baby? Hah.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Ok that was genomics inspired. Lol.
WHERE MY GYM KAH-KIS AT??
Sam, Lin, i ddont wana get colon cancer. It hurts.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
1,2,3,4 plain white t's
This song is dedicated to you baby,
And to all whom i love and care about.
SAM, THIS IS ESP FOR YOU TOO :D
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Even a GUY could look this good.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Ok i know im the last to update CNY photos.
CNY is getting boring, not fun anymore..
Nevertheless its the last CNY im gona spend with my family of 6 now that Shannon is gonexzxzx.
Ang baos; disappointment.
PINEAPPLE TARTS; disappointment.
Ba Gua; dont remem eating it.
Overall mood; SUPER SIANXZ AH.
Sighh. hope the next year would be better :)